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JESUS I do not know how to begin but the event is so important that I just simply want to share it, so that we know Christ is with us especially in our hour of need. I had been very successful in my life. The classical “born with a silver spoon in my mouth" type. Life was running very well, I was a successful executive, financially stable, family and everything that one can ask for. Four years ago, everything changed. Suddenly, I was left with no career, no family, and little funds. I can say life had never looked grimmer. I never realised what it was to be desperate, hopeless and completely in a black, black hole. I had to move out of my home. I stayed at my friend's place for a short period. She was constantly worried, as she was never quite sure whether I would kill myself. The thought did cross my mind, I was just a living zombie, not eating, not caring and just hoping that I would die. I just go into deep deep sleep, helping me to block out everything. I would sit, staring out in blankness, wondering why this would happen to me. One night, whilst staring out in the night, I wrote a poem to God asking Him "Where are you? Reading your Footprints verses, aren't you supposed to be holding me when I am so hurt, so lonely and so utterly lost? I have nowhere to turn. Left, right, front, and back, it is complete darkness for me. Tears are running down my face daily. What have you done to help me? I am crying out to you in desperation as I have never been so close to shutting down and wanting to die." I was so exhausted with my pain, suffering and losses. On Sunday, my friend took me to church, Methodist English Speaking church. I went unwillingly, as I thought, "What's the point?" At the end of the service, I tried to walk out without speaking to the pastor. I thought I was safe, when I sneaked past him. Suddenly, he turned round. He opened his hands. I was stunned. In front of me, I saw Jesus Christ. He was robed in white, and it was very bright all round him. The crowds of people leaving the church suddenly seemed to be gone. It was just Him and me. His eyes were so kind and loving....I felt myself totally immersed with Him. He asked me "How are you, my child?" I replied, in a very emotional voice, "I am not good, Father". He held out his arms, and I just dashed into his arms, sobbing my heart out. In that moment of embrace, I felt such love, warmth flowing out from Him, that I felt most refreshed and calmed. He told me, "Everything will be all right, my child." Whilst in his arms, it felt like feathers, so warm, so soft, so reassuring....that was what I remembered. The complete love, and understanding. Then suddenly, I was back to earth. The pastor offered to pray for me which I gladly accepted. This event of personally seeing Christ has touched me to the core of my being. I had been brought up in a Catholic school and generally, God was a convenient parking place, when one has problems to pray to. I never anticipated being touched in this manner, nor in my current situation. Despite the encounter, it had taken another year before I accepted Christ totally, and I was baptised in 2004. True to His promise, things improved and I am now back on my feet. Still scarred, but living life with joy, and hope. I had used some of my time to help others, and participated rigorously in the HK goverment social welfare program and was nominated one of the Ambassors against Adversity, to help families in strife, or troubled families. I spoke at radio programs to encourage people to come forward and not live with their problems and pain in silence. I encourage people to pray. Today, I try so much harder to walk my path with Christ. I still have to remind myself to put Him in front of my needs or ego. He has given me many blessings, and despite the trial I faced, I had been strengthened by Him. He does come to our calls of help, and we just have to patiently work it out. It took me years before I am finally where I am today: a follower of Christ, by challenging myself to heed the Words of God, and to be constantly aware of the ease of slipping back. There really is no easy way. Reading the bible has helped me tremendously, and fellowship helps, but the discipline of self control and patience is one of the most key elements — for me. I used to be a lip service Christian, thinking that if I go to church once a week, it is OK. These four years have taught me to understand better the role of a Christian, and living it is a challenge that needs the Holy Spirit's help to overcome. I still slip and slide, however, I pray for the Holy Spirit to help me. On the whole, an improved being, but further improvements can be achieved. I hope by sharing this story of mine, it can help others. If you are in trouble or need, pray — there is always a solution with God, even though at times, the solution may not seem appealing to us. I think I am beginning to understand the prayer asking by God's will, and not ours. If you are satisfied and things are running well, I would still say pray, and thank Him for all His blessings and to bless others as well. Finally, I pray that each of us will one day see Christ. The experience is heavenly. God Bless Judy ^ Back to Top |
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